It's Wednesday, around 6 and my last full "free" day until I head to my new job on Monday. So it is fitting that I am sitting in Starbucks on East writing this. I used to come here every day for several months. It was more than a place to come and have a cup of coffee, I came here for sanity.
Six months ago I way laid off from my job in real estate and I never imagined I would be unemployed for that long. When I look back it has gone by fast but the day to day from month one through four was pure hell. Thank goodness I was writing. I spent every day from around 2pm on working on getting writing jobs or writing for the jobs I had. It saved me. Because quite honestly some days it was hard to get out of bed. In those first few months I felt a little lost, confused and on the edge of depression. Some days I felt like I wasn't on the edge but down in the deep end swimming around. Although there have been tears, I felt confident in Lord like I have never felt before. It was palpable for the first time.
Through it all, my time in prayer, crying out to the Lord for his hand to hold my heart combined with working out and spending time with friends got me through this unusual time in my life. It was a heart wrenching, horrible and beautiful time all at the same time. I met new friends, let go of others and spent a lot of time writing. During the 6 months I scored over 15 jobs writing, money which kept me afloat. And through it all I was still able to go out to eat, travel and have fun with friends. Somehow the money stretched.
I don't know how to adequately explain all that happened to me in the past 6 months...all that I have experienced and learned, but I wanted to recognize and mark it's end. I am so thankful for my new job and look forward to all that it brings. Maybe I'll write a book someday...:)
God Is Not a Librarian
6 months ago